I feel a lot of things.

I started to work on my job situation.  I have a job at the moment but it doesn't start until February.  I'm going to get another job to get out of working there, but I don't want to quit it until I'm sure I have another job.  

I did my Babysitting job website sweep, and Sittercity and Care had some hits.  Urbansitter still needs a video, which I can't make on my compy.  I'm going to ask my mom to help me make it with her iphone. Care4hire has nothing on it.  

I emailed DARS.  

Then I got stuck.  I wanted to get on craigslist and robot through the ads, but something held me back.  I feel confused and embarrassed about some of the things suggested on that site.  However, I have gotten a job on there before.  I don't know how legit it was, but I was paid real money and I was really working. 

I couldn't even go past that to writing jobs.  

And as for getting out, I imagine today's not a great day for it, being a holiday.  

I don't have any friends to take me out.  

There are no job fairs today.  

As for the newspaper, they only had one ad that seemed to be of interest and it even was rather sketchy looking.  

I've been sailing in and out of different forms of depression all day.

Talking to Jeffery Young. Nice to have someone to relate to.  

I want to go to the church meeting, but I also feel tired from staying up all night.  

I keep getting stuck in waiting.  I feel really dumb and hate the feeling of being boxed up and doing nothing.  Is that what I do to recharge? Sit and stare a things?  I was trying to find something more substantial, but I guess that's just too much for some me.  Because I want to be doing things so bad. 

I feel like everyone is cutthroat these days.  

My mom is sleeping her day away and watching TV.  I guess things could be worse.  

I feel so aggressive.  Angry.  I'm not sure if I should pacify the anger and let it dissipate or use it. 

And I feel sad.  I feel a lot of things.