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I'm detoxing.  Mostly on Facebook, which has toxins of it's own, but is good in a pinch if you like Snoop Dog narrating otters chasing crocodiles and Ellen and Jimmy having a lip sync battle with Justin presiding as judge.  It definitely has it's charm.

Talking to him on Skype right now.  Now I know why reporters are looked at as such seasoned die-hards, it's because the more you know about the topic and can get from a lead, the more you can write for them.  I think the writer starves more than other types of artists.  But if you can hide it, make it less noticeable, that starving can become the earrings which compliment the outfit worn by the woman who wrote the story of the century.

My fingers hurt. I got burned. Burned by the steam in the bag of a TV dinner.  Lasagna.  Veggie. Taking it out of the microwave.  Ninja cleans the plastic/paper plate when I'm done. It's not recyclable.

I've got to walk that dog.  I so don't want to.  Don't say it.  Going to.  But in whose energy.  When do they want it back?  In what condition?  This is the first time I've ever analyzed that on paper like that.
In MY energy, for the energy that I've slaved away and sacrificed all day, I'll be using here.  Just kidding.  That would be rebellion.

Ok, guess what?  I told Alex how I felt about maybe not being able to complete the plan and sent him what I have so far. I'm awaiting his response.  I told him I couldn't do it because of my own moral issues.   But you know what?  It was really my families moral issues.  My sister, my dad and my brother.  They heard the word weed and screamed, I won't support you!  So I tried writing without them, and I didn't get anywhere.  Now they are rewarding me (dopamine) for quitting. Good job dad, you raised a quitter. At night, before I take Zyprexa, at 8, my dopamine receptors get more sensitive.  They are blocked out by the Zyprexa at night.  They are more of the blue energy.  Adrenaline is red, and heat causing. Maybe I'm gettting violent because I have no dopamine to stop me.  I knew I would figure it out.

Still going to try to get off lithium first because it caused my hypothyroidism, a minor health issue, for I think that is serious enough to stop taking lithium.  And I hate being dependent on the medication and my mother loves it. She LOVES it.  It's like the one thing she has over me.

And she's home and I'm walking the dog.