Accidental Jesus Rant

I got up supra early this morning.  My previous self would be so jealous of me right now!

5am.  

That's how early.

Enjoying the Lord Jesus.

I think I come on to blogger and complain about things for two reasons: one; to prove that I'm a person with conflict and two, to hide the good things inside of me and never let them out.  To save and savor them, keep them a secret between me and Jesus, when it turns out I'm not helping other people.

Witness Lee always says we are great lovers of God until it comes to other people.  Then we get exposed.   I am exposed in my writing because there are other people involved other than just me.  I really appreciate the dealings of conscience that I get.  There's not just my conflict: there's other people and their conflicts.

I just have to sacrifice what I don't want to sacrifice if I want to keep writing this blog, and I really do.  Before, in 2005, I had no readers, so it didn't matter, but the Lord has actually blessed me with readers, so I must consider their thoughts and intentions.

I wanted to share that with you because I care about ya'll and I want you to know I'm thinking about you when I write.  So I shall write on, and on shall I write!

Old Job Places

I am scouting out all my old job places that I've worked before, trying to get a job there, because I know they are all good places to work.  I used to work at Subway, Kroger and Chuck E. Cheese, all places within walking distance.

I've had really low self-esteem lately about getting a job, lately.  My mom has been putting off taking me places, and it's difficult to get out of the house and up in the morning.  I think my mom wants me to wait until the holidays are over to look for a job, and I feel like I can't wait.  She is probably right, though, I should just take a breather.

Took a stand today, to go to the strip mall in Pantego, near my house.  I woke up late and was angry about that, then I took the dog for a long walk, which I felt she needed.  I wasn't sure I would get out again, but I did and everything was worth it.

Life comes at you fast, but if you are ready, you can catch and pass.