I feel a lot of things.

I started to work on my job situation.  I have a job at the moment but it doesn't start until February.  I'm going to get another job to get out of working there, but I don't want to quit it until I'm sure I have another job.  

I did my Babysitting job website sweep, and Sittercity and Care had some hits.  Urbansitter still needs a video, which I can't make on my compy.  I'm going to ask my mom to help me make it with her iphone. Care4hire has nothing on it.  

I emailed DARS.  

Then I got stuck.  I wanted to get on craigslist and robot through the ads, but something held me back.  I feel confused and embarrassed about some of the things suggested on that site.  However, I have gotten a job on there before.  I don't know how legit it was, but I was paid real money and I was really working. 

I couldn't even go past that to writing jobs.  

And as for getting out, I imagine today's not a great day for it, being a holiday.  

I don't have any friends to take me out.  

There are no job fairs today.  

As for the newspaper, they only had one ad that seemed to be of interest and it even was rather sketchy looking.  

I've been sailing in and out of different forms of depression all day.

Talking to Jeffery Young. Nice to have someone to relate to.  

I want to go to the church meeting, but I also feel tired from staying up all night.  

I keep getting stuck in waiting.  I feel really dumb and hate the feeling of being boxed up and doing nothing.  Is that what I do to recharge? Sit and stare a things?  I was trying to find something more substantial, but I guess that's just too much for some me.  Because I want to be doing things so bad. 

I feel like everyone is cutthroat these days.  

My mom is sleeping her day away and watching TV.  I guess things could be worse.  

I feel so aggressive.  Angry.  I'm not sure if I should pacify the anger and let it dissipate or use it. 

And I feel sad.  I feel a lot of things.  

I didn't get a job by

I didn't get a job by:

Staying home

Not networking / being alone all the time  

Being rigid towards myself and others

Overthinking things

Over complicating things

Being overly intro- or outro- spective without a balance

Mismanaging time

Not sacrificing to get a job

Not depending on others

To get a job:

Get out

You can get out by walking to local places near you to get a job, having people such as friends or family take you places,

Network, Know you aren't alone



Be flexible
Don't think at all
Don't be complicated
Be even about looking at yourself
Manage your time wisely
Sacrifice
Depend on others

My Main Motivation for Finding a Job Soon and Freelance Writing Sites that I Trust to Get the Job Done

I'm trying to get a snappy new job so that my mom doesn't have to support me and so that I can support myself and to pay off my student loans.  I would also include tithe.

There's tons of little things I'd like to spend my money on.  Getting the laptop keyboard fixed.  I am now not able to use the letter "z," I have to copy and paste, and clothes, as I keep running out of bras and pants.  I would like to get some new purses, and order food out, or go to the store to get candy.  

However, I am not going to do any of these things until I pay my debt to the to my mom who helped me out, paying for my classes and the federal government.  I must practice what I preach and put paying my debt first.  My mom says that she won't use the social security money I am receiving to pay for my student loans, anymore.  So money wise that would be a 10% debt and a 90% to loans.  

This means I have no choice but to get a job.  

Tomorrow, if all goes well, I will get out to look for a job.  Until then, since I can't go out, I'll work on online writing jobs.  

Textbroker.com is the most reliable site to get paid.  Then there's Freelancer.com on which I got a job which didn't go well, and Upwork.com where I'm yet to get a job. Then there's Online-Writing-Jobs.com which I think will help me get a "bread-and-butter" job, a job that you can get to "pay the bills."  

I don't know what specifications I should use to find said writing job.  I don't really have any guidance in this area. Should I be focusing on SEO since it is the biggest thing right now?  Should I be focusing on editing, since a lot of the time that's what I feel like doing instead of writing?  I could focus on specific areas such as family or pets or business.  I feel like I have too much freedom and not enough vision in this area.   

Therefore, I am paying off my student loans and when I can't get out I'm looking for online writing jobs.   I have no clue what I should be specializing in so Jesus take the wheel.