Sunday, September 24, 2017

Job Searching Searching

Lately, I've been torn between choosing a job that is readily available and choosing a job that I would love.  Because I love animals.  But A LOT of people LOVE animals and there just isn't that great of a pool out there.  Although, I would love a job that involved animals, is it really worth it, to slave away at a job that involves something I love but that I would never feel really worthy of because I know people who would be tons better at the job than I would be?  Here I'm really devaluing myself.  Maybe I'm just discouraged.  

Lately, I've been thinking.  I have a job.  Maybe I should just stop there.  It's good enough.  The major qualms I have about this job are:

1. That it is not full time yet, and may never be if I'm not good enough.  
2. That the pay is not awesome.  $9.00/hr is great, but not enough to live on.  
3.  The work is flipping burgers.  Not something great or grand or magnificent.  

I love my job already and will put my heart and soul into flipping those burgers, but is it what I really want to do with my life?  I know I shouldn't say "This is good enough."  

So where do we go from here?  Should I keep at the job I love because I love it and it will work out in the end?  Should I pick up the job I hate because that's more long lasting and I can use my grittiness on it?  I've got all these loose ends. Should I check out admin assistant jobs, which I haven't so far out of deference to my mom's admin assistant job?   Should I try at home jobs, because I hate staying at home and because most are part time, they would fit in with my Whataburger job?  

That's what I've been leaning into, lately. (also using the word "lately" a lot.)   At home jobs.  If I can find a part time one, I'd have something to do on the weekends, anyhow.  And in my mind, I hate being at home all the time, but my lazy self, I love to relax as I do things.  (This does have the same problems as animal jobs, as I think everyone would love to work from home.) 

So as far as the list of job categories goes, here it is.

General (ex. warehousing)
Kids
Animals
At Home
Administrative Assistant
Restaurant
Entertainment/Tourism
Sales and Marketing
Car Related

I don't really hate or love any specific area.  

On the one hand, since I got this job I felt like I should take a break from job searching, but on the other hand,I don't want my job searching skills to get rusty, especially if I'm not at this job very long.  

After some deliberation, I have decided to stop searching for a job for a month, the month of October, and devote my full attention to my new job at Whataburger.  Also, this will give me time to choose a career path, decide where my life is going or not going and choose a direction.  

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